Re: Re: Re: Alternative meds for Bipolar/Tramatic Stress Syndrome

Posted by CATHERINE SCRIVEN on 04/15/06 at 04:37 PM

HI VICTORIA,I TO SUFFER WITH MY DEMONDS EVERY DAY.I HAVE SUFFERED DEATH AND ABUSE SINCE I WAS ABOUT 7.I HAVE LEARNED SO MANY SELF DEFENCE CLASSES,SIGN LANGAUGE AND OTHER METHORDS OF REALEASE SINCE I WAS YOUNG.I HAVE FELT ALONE AND SCARED,SO MUCH SO THAT I HAVE TRIED TO END MY LIVE TO ESCAPE ALL THE PAIN THAT NEVER SEEMS TO LEAVE MY MIND.I CAN\'T CRY ANYMORE AS I DON\'T WANT MY FRIENDS AND FAMILY TO THINK I\'M WEAK.YET IF ONLY I COULD LET GO AND MAKE LIFE HAPPY AND BEAUTIFUL FOR EVERYONE I WOULD BE ABLE TO RELAX AGAIN AND CALM MY NERVES.DR\'S GIVE ME DRUGS WHICH MAKE ME FEEL WORSE.CONSTIPATED,TUMMY PAIN AND CONFUSION,ALSO MAKIN ME DROWSEY AND DIZZY!!!!I JUST WANT TO BE NORMAL.I HAVE 5 BEAUTIFUL CHILDREN,2 CRAZY DOGS AND AN ANGEL FOR A HUSBAND.BUT WE STRUGGLE EVERYDAY BECAUSE I HAVE BEEN BEATEN,RAPED,ABUSED TO THE EXTENT THAT DEATH WOULD HAVE BEEN KINDA.MY CHILDREN WITNESS A LITTLE.MY SON OF 13 ALSO HAS P.T.S.YET NO ONE HAS HELPED US,ONLY JUDGES US,FRIGHTEN US AND MOST HAVE MADE THINGS HARDER FOR US.WE WILL SURVIVE,AS BEST WE CAN,BECAUSE I HAVE GOD IN MY HEART,SOUL AND HOPEFULLY SOON(AFTER MY OP}MY BODY.WE LOVE EACH OTHER,EVEN WHEN NO ONE UNDERSTANDS,WE WILL WIN OUR WAR BECAUSE THE STRENGTH IN OUR FAMILY AND THOSES WHO HAVE PAST.GOD WILL HELP US BECAUSE HE IS OUR FATHER,WHAT EVER COLOUR OR RELIGION.GOOD WILL CONQUER EVIL.WE WILL HELP HIM BY DOING OUR BEST TO HELP OTHERS AND LAUGH OUR WAY TO THE TOP.ONE DAY I\'LL WRITE MY STORY AND GIVE MOST OF THE MONEY AWAY TO THOSE WHO NEED IT,TILL THEN I\'LL SCRAPE PENNYS TO FEED MY BABIES,LITTLE MONSTERS!!!AND I\'LL TRY TO GO TO CHURCH ON SUNDAYS RATHER THEN FOOTBALL!AMEN.HAPPY EASTER AND GOD BLESS.CAT.XX