I was on Effexor for a couple of years, 150 mg. This summer, after months of night terrors, night sweats, brain shocks and tremors, I went off of it cold turkey. This literally almost killed me. I was out of my mind for several days, it was terrifying. The brian shocks and tremors persisted for weeks. Finally they have subsided, but now I am on an emotional roller coaster. One day I\'m okay, the next I\'m planning out my suicide. Today is one of those days, just wrote yet another letter to my family explaining why I have to end my life. I have two small children who I love with all of my heart, but I am in such mental anguish that life is just not worth living anymore. Also, I\'ve become so irritable that I think that I would be doing them a favor in the end. I fear that my brain is permanently damaged.