Oh sweetie, how I feel for you. I have been on about 25 meds, had ect and am now starting the effexor withdrawal process of which so many horrifying tales have been told. My advice to you is to see your doctor and go on another medication. Different things work for different people, as I\'m sure you know. The best one I\'ve been on was Wellbutrin, but, within 6 months, every med I\'ve been on has pooped out. I understand your discouragement, but please try to get regular medical care and therapy and utilize whatever support system you have. Sending good thoughts, Lauren